7 Jars of Peanut Butter

You Are Not Alone

2011-06-26T10:58:00.000-05:00

You Are Not Alone I woke up this morning with the song "You Are Not Alone" going through my head. Then several different places on Facebook I saw that phrase this morning. An event came to my mind, when I was in California a couple of years ago. I had left Indiana on April 20th, 2009 with $334, and everything I owned in my little red 2003 Ford Focus. I was headed to a Mermaid Mixed Media

If You Get the Chance I Hope You Just Laugh!

2011-03-30T00:06:00.002-05:00

If You Get the Chance I Hope You Just Laugh! Andrew David Huntsman 3/30/1985-11/22/2003 My son! Happy Birthday! Love and Miss you! Knowing this day was coming up I decided to find a way to celebrate it in the style that Andrew would have wanted. As people walked through the line at the viewing for him, over and over I heard " He always made me laugh!" So this year I am going to LAUGH!

Sharing my story!

2011-03-27T19:54:00.001-05:00

I have had a "situation" in my life that I want "fixed'! I am so exhausted and have just wanted to "quit" EVERYTHING! I am in a place in my life where I see the spiritual world and physical world mixed together. I asked the spiritual world to just let me "quit" and lay down my physical body and "pass over" to the spiritual realm. I hear "just wait to see how this all plays out". So I guess the

My Sassy Self is Back!

2011-03-12T15:21:00.002-06:00

My Sassy Self is BACK! December 31, 2001/ January 1, 2002 My daughter Bethany's Story "Hey you want to go for a ride with us, in this van we stole?" My gut told me not to get in the van, but I did it anyway. The ride was so much fun even though the driver was only years 13 years old. The 3 of us took turns on our joy ride around the country side! I don't remember much for the next few days,

What are you afraid of?

2011-03-06T20:39:00.001-06:00

What are you afraid of? Recently I talking to my sister about my desire to hold workshops for people. My vision a couple years earlier that I shared with the leader of the singles group was to have them for the singles. I thought my sister and her husband could lead the one on finances because they were following the Dave Ramsey program and had turned that part of their life around. Also

Pay It Forward Eddie!

2011-02-26T15:06:00.002-06:00

I had an amazing Pay It Forward experience last night! The following is a note that I wrote last year. My Paying It Forward last night made me THANK Eddie again! I had pulled into a rest area to go to the restroom. When I was crossing the parking lot a car pulled up to me and the man said "Can I ask you a huge favor?" "I am almost out of gas and I am on my way to pick up my daughter." I am

Trevor Andrew Huntsman's 4th Birthday!

2011-02-24T11:36:00.001-06:00

Trevor Andrew Huntsman's 4th Birthday! If when one leaves this plane there are not left behind hundreds of teary red eyes sobbing about the loss of that individual then why were they ever really here ? Divinicus Alchemus Magicus Tomorrow will be my grandson Trevor's 4th birthday. Preparing for this day ahead of time so that it does not catch me off guard. I decided to celebrate it in the

Wild Hair Woman

2011-02-23T07:38:00.002-06:00

Having baby fine, wavy hair I have had difficulties keeping it under some sort of control for most of my life. First memory of my hair is my Grandma Brown brushing it. She was in such a hurry and so rough that she brushed my ears. I remember the bristles scrapping the flesh which made me jump around. She scolded me that if I would keep it combed I would not be going through this right now. I

Saving/Changing

2011-02-22T15:00:00.002-06:00

Saving/Changing "When we tell our stories, we change the world." Brene Brown "I Thought it Was Just Me (but it isn't): Telling the Truth About Perfectionism, Inadequacy, and Power" My mom once told me "You can't save the whole world!". Well I was going to try anyway! I have had a strong magnetic pull for the underdog. Recently while telling "my story" to a friend about the circumstances

As Cold As Ice

2011-02-17T17:01:00.001-06:00

As Cold As Ice A couple of days ago I over heard a friend talking to their mom on the phone. I began to feel sad. Working on not squelching my feelings lately, I "felt" the sadness. What was it about? Then waves of wanting came. I can't talk to my mom on the phone. I miss my mom. I didn't know that not being able to call my mom up anytime and tell her anything, bothered me, until I "felt" the

I Radiate Love and Happiness

2011-02-10T11:39:00.002-06:00

I Radiate Love and Happiness! Last May I attended a workshop in Chicago on Finding Your Soulmate taught by Arielle Ford. I have been single for almost 11 years and have been thinking I don't want to be alone much longer. I am not feeling

My Needs Are Always Provided For

2011-02-07T16:21:00.003-06:00

My needs are always provided for. I really believe this affirmation for my physical needs. Recently it was put to the test for my emotional ones. I have made some decisions for myself about setting boundaries and sticking to them. This has not been an easy thing for me. When the test came to establish the line, my heart hurt but I knew it was the best for me. "NO" why is that such a hard

"I don't wanna....."

2011-02-06T11:37:00.002-06:00

Staring out the window one day while painfully trying to write about MY grief and how it has threaded goldenly through my life even before I was born, my overwhelming thought was "I don't wanna... do it!" Then WHY are you? BECAUSE it is MY life and I am trying to tell MY life story? Because some friends and family said that is what I "should" do? Because it is what people NEED? But I WANT to

Finding My Voice

2011-02-02T16:09:00.003-06:00

A jumble of thought has been binging against the creases in my brain for a few days and I thought by writing them down it might straighten them out into a coherent form. In the last few weeks I have come across events in my life where in the past I might have kept my opinion to myself. I think, "man I wish I could say this or that to the person". Why don't you? I hear that voice in my head ask.

Profound

2011-01-28T14:24:00.003-06:00

I am back to writing on this blog. But...but...but... I don't have anything "profound" to share. Do I really need "profound" moments to share? Isn't my everyday life "profound" in itself? This past week I have slept in my car at rest areas and store parking lots. In a hotel and a friends' house. Taken a shower in a community center that I stumbled upon. While living this nomadic lifestyle for

Notice!!!!

2011-01-17T10:30:00.005-06:00

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November 25, 2008 Chicago Mermaid blog

2010-11-02T16:34:00.002-05:00

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 Artist Way Recently I have been consuming books from the library. I have read The Dance of the Dissident Daughter: A Woman's Journey from Christian Tradition to the Sacred Feminine by Sue Monk Kidd. I picked it up because I have been into dancing lately and I have read a couple of her other books and loved them. I was touched the core of my being while reading this book

From my Chicago Mermaid blog!

2010-11-02T16:16:00.000-05:00

Monday, November 3, 2008 A Bun Dance Been doing a little bit of dancing lately. I read the book Law of Attraction a few months ago. They talked about abundance in our lives. When I saw it, I saw the word "A Bun Dance". I love to dance. Well when I have something fun or exciting happen in my life I have been doing the "A Bun Dance". Thought I would share by little dances from yesterday. I dropped

Longing

2010-06-11T19:41:00.001-05:00

I met SARK!! She is a wonderful inspirational artist/author/speaker/person! One of the points she made in her presentation was to feel your feelings. Feel them don't push them away. What are they? I began thinking back to my alone time in my magic little house in Lafayette IN. I was longing for some friends and maybe some dates. This longing led me to a site called Plenty of Fish. They were

Intuition

2010-05-10T08:48:00.000-05:00

Listen to it! Take the time to know your intuitions voice. Then begin listening to it. You will be surprised where it takes you and what blessings it bestows upon you. 7 Jars of Peanut Butter is the result of me listening to that voice following it and seeing the awesome results. I probably hear and listen correctly to that voice 90% of the time. 10% of the time I am wrong. None of us like to be

Healthy Mother/Adult Child Relationship.

2010-05-09T10:19:00.001-05:00

Below is what I used at the Domestic Violence shelter when I worked there. I thought this could be translated to a mother/adult child relationship. One of my goals for 2010 is to strengthen my relationship with my children. Let me use the tools I know to accomplish this. CHARACTERISTICS OF A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP Let's you be yourself. Let's you be together as a couple(mother/adult child), but

Memories of Trevor

2010-04-04T09:48:00.002-05:00

I think when a loved one dies we become afraid that we will "forget". Not the person but all of those yummy moments we had with them. My grandaughters Taylor and Dakota wrote letters to their little brother Trevor Andrew Huntsman that were read at his funeral this past week. Trevors' Grandma Mary Jo also wrote a letter that was read. I thought how very nice what a way to remember. Hi Trevor,

Source

2010-01-27T10:37:00.002-06:00

Writing this blog is sort of like cooking a big pot of vegetable soup. The ideas sort of simmer for a while then pop one comes to the surface like the bubbles of the boiling liquid. This one I title Source. You might think of it as Creator, God, Goddess, the Universe or any other name you want to describe it in your life. All of my needs at met by my Source. I am amazed by the avenue the Source

Kindred Spirits

2010-01-09T20:04:00.001-06:00

Venturing out for the first time in a couple of days was refreshing. Being a readaholic one of my many stops was at Barnes and Noble. First to the art books then to the self-help books. One that caught my eye is titled "When the Bough Breaks: Forever After the Death of a Son or Daughter" by Judith R. Bernstein Ph.D. I usually avoid grief books but this one seemed different. While reading the

46 Things to learn in 2010

2009-12-31T12:49:00.000-06:00

Okay folks I don't have to make up a new list from last year just add a few more things onto it. While I accomplished and did learn masses I strayed from my list a bit last year! Below is my list from last year with added tidbits from me! 45 things to learn in 2009 One of my friend Cindy's favorite blogs is 37 Days. I went there to check it out and she encouraged you to learn in 2009 as many

Slumdog Millionaire

2009-12-28T21:07:00.001-06:00

This is a repeat blog. I received the DVD for a present and thought this was worth repeating. While going through "The Artist Way" course I have been taking my artist self on "dates". I am not sure how to "date" so I just do what seems like fun at the time. I had heard that the movie "Slumdog Millionaire" was a must see movie. Oprah had said it is a love story like no other you have ever

Plan

2009-12-27T16:57:00.000-06:00

Still thinking about my life having a plan and a purpose. I think back to when my daughter Bethany was in her auto accident. She was 15 at the time. The timing and placement of people in our path could not have been more beautiful. It was New Year's Eve 2000/2001. Bethany was in Portland at her dad's for the weekend. I had a guy coming to my apartment to take me to a party that my sister

Speed Dating N.E.X.T.

2009-12-16T15:59:00.000-06:00

One of my favorite sayings that my daughter uses is "Men are like McDonalds Drive Thru...N.E.X.T!" I think it is the very modern way of saying there are more out there if you don't work out. Last night at my Speed Dating experience I said N.E.X.T. thru the 7 men there. Example number one. There were questions on the table that you could ask. I choose "If you were an animal in the wild what

Alive

2009-12-14T11:35:00.000-06:00

Do one thing every day that scares you. Eleanor Roosevelt US diplomat & reformer (1884 - 1962) I was talking to a friend recently that has been doing new different things in his life. He told me that he truely feels alive when he is stretching himself to the limits. Doing one thing every day that scares me has been a great way to feel alive. I want to live and FEEL alive.

Balance

2009-12-11T08:01:00.000-06:00

My thoughts lately are about the balance in my life. I know currently things are tipping a bit out of balance. It makes my world a bit rocky. How do I get it back? I heard bits and pieces of an interview with Oprah about her weight and she said something like "when my weight gets out of control I know my world is out of balance. I need to get back to putting myself first." I can relate to that.

Smells that Transport

2009-12-08T11:48:00.000-06:00

Last week was unusually stressful for me. I don't usually stress over things. I was trying to do too much in too short of time. Also there was some strain in a relationship with someone. I happened to go to the store and noticed Organix Revitalizing Pomegranate Green Tea shampoo on the shelf. That is the shampoo I took with me to the Bahamas. I took a sniff and was transported back to the pebbled

12 signs of a controlling personality and potential abuser

2009-12-03T13:31:00.001-06:00

1. Jealousy 2. Blames others (including you) for his faults, him being the way he is 3. Blames circumstances for his problems (it's not me, it's how life is treating me) 4. His behaviour is unpredictable and you don't know what to expect from him at any time, in particular how he may greet you 5. He belittles you verbally, tries to take away your self-esteem and self-respect 6. He cannot

Duty

2009-11-27T15:53:00.000-06:00

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

"Stuff"

2009-11-24T10:56:00.000-06:00

I went to The Jay Garment Antique Mall in Portland Indiana last Friday. Just to walk around get some exercise and look and see what they had. Which is EVERYTHING! I passed by childhood memories just amazed. I had given all my "stuff" away in April of this year. Keeping a few treasures for myself. Knowing that I wanted to travel light.... very light. While talking to people as I have been

Contrast

2009-11-23T13:41:00.000-06:00

Sunrises and sunsets what is so breath taking about them? What is so visually appealing about them? I have had the honor of studying them on the west coast, east coast, and in the midwest of the United States, as well as in the Carribean these past 6 months. What comes to me over and over is the contrast. The light and dark meeting. I remember my drawing teachers saying to me "darker...darker..

Grief

2009-11-22T18:00:00.000-06:00

6 years ago today my 18 year old son Andrew was killed in an auto accident. It has been the most difficult thing I have ever had to deal with in my life. One of the things that has made it easier to talk about it is simply talking about it. On this journey I am on I have met some very awesome people. When sharing my life I have been able to talk about my son dying and the art therapy I did after