Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Finding My Voice
A jumble of thought has been binging against the creases in my brain for a few days and I thought by writing them down it might straighten them out into a coherent form.
In the last few weeks I have come across events in my life where in the past I might have kept my opinion to myself. I think, "man I wish I could say this or that to the person". Why don't you? I hear that voice in my head ask. Uh.... Soon I am watching the person stop and look at me as the words pass my lips. I am finding my voice.
When did I lose it?
On Saturday a friend and I went to watch the movie "The King's Speech". While I don't want to give the movie away for those of you who have not seen it, I need to share parts of it. The Duke of York stutters when he speaks. He reveals some abuse he had as a child at about the same time the stuttering began. This triggered some of the binging thoughts I need to put on paper.
My voice why did I lose it?
"But if you take away my voice," said the little mermaid, "what is left for me?"
"Your beautiful form, your graceful walk, and your expressive eyes; surely with these you can enchain a man's heart." (sea witch)
Who did I give it away for?
Maybe my LOVE of WATER is not the only reason I chose to be Chicago Mermaid.
This morning I pop onto Facebook and these quotes are there placed especially for me.
Randy Grossman: "Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." ~ Harvey Fierstein
Sometimes it is just really necessary to use your outside voice. Speak up.
I went in search of this one.
If you have the feeling that something is wrong, don't be afraid to speak up.
Thoughts of working at the Domestic Violence shelter swished through.
Does it really matter to me WHEN, HOW or WHO to? I don't really know. One thing I do know for sure I am very glad I am finding it again.